I am Job's weakened state of mind...

Before I go into my full rant, I want to wish a very happy b-day to my dear sibling. Happy b-day sister!!!

I wish i had a better pic, but I'm sort on time...

Frustration nation

If I had hair, this is exactly what I would look like right now...

Anyway, this has been the week from hell. Not only have I been in an emotionally drained state of mind (see august 26th, 2 posts ago), but a slew of things have occurred that have just been poking at me and poking at me constantly. Here it is in story form, hopefully w/ all details included:

I get a carwash on Monday, thinkin, it'll be a good week for it, it had just rained over the weekend(and thank goodness I didn't get it on friday). Monday was okay, Tuesday, mom and pop get their usually bi-annual snaking-of-the-drain. They've been putting off doing a permanent treatment for a while. Anyway, throughout the past 6 months or so, we've noticed a stagnant water smell around the house...but figured it was the neighbors. While the plumber guy is doin his thang, my folks mention the smell to him and he says he notices it too, so he suggests we have it inspected by this other company that does stuff like that, because anything outside of the pipes is not in the plumber's jurisdiction. So they call and someone comes over...checks around the house and underneath....he comes out sopping wet and says that there's six inches of water underneath the house and maggots and sewage all over!!! WTF! Apparently, there was a broken fitting in one of the pipes and has been leaking the plumbing UNDERNEATH the house for the past 1/2 year! So basically, the hosue is sitting on a cesspool...a total biohazard. We have to immediately call in a crew to drain the water, treat the soil w/ some enzyme, remove the dirt repack it, and get rid of the biowaste. It was all done in a day...but the downer is that it cost $5000, which I had to cover. And the repair for the broken fitting underneath the house cost another $700. So that was a big smack in the back for me, because I had not planned on incurring such a big transaction with me about to move and all...so it totally bummed me out. I ended up taking the rest of the day off of work and hanging w/ Chris at the new house, which was cool and relaxing. We just watched TV and he listened to me bitch and complain about my most recent transaction. After several cigarettes and feeling rested enough,I decided to head home, and when I got to my car, I found that it had been completely covered with water by the sprinkler system. There went the carwash I JUST got. The car was covered in water spots...man, how dirty is that sprinkler water? Anyway, I tried to shrug it off and went home. Wednesday, I had to drop off the final payment for pop's shindig and talked to the plumbing people about performing the initial repair on the house. They told me that they'd check it out and figured it would cost about $1000. A grand to do the lining on the inside of the pipes, preventing the ficus roots from getting in, thus rid them of having to do the bi-annual drainage thang - which is about 300 a pop anyway. And mind you, they've been doing this for about 4 or 5 years already. Another $1000 didn't sound too bad after that big bang from the other day...so I though, eh, ok. Yesterday, I get a call being told that the total cost for repairs(because they found a shifted pipe underneath the steps of the house). The shifted pipe may lead to future issues like we dealt with on tuesday, so that needed to be fixed, and the pipe lining should have been run through there as well. The new total? EIGHT - THOUSAND - DOLLARS. Again, I think if I had hair, it would've all turned white at that moment. So yeah, 8k...i got to think about that all day while I went running at the track...one of my few sources for release lately; well, at least healthy ones...that and music. Anyway, later that night we had to move some furniture that Bev and Melissa gave to my sister, so we borrowed Jun's truck. Drove to his place, and I find a ticket on his truck, which was parked in front of the garage, which by the way is in a gated community. Who gives tickets in a small gated community? Even though he told me to just park it there, i felt horrible that he got a $55 ticket. Tack that onto the bill. So we get to Bev and Melissa's...oh and Ja's place now too, he he he. The TV is easily over 200 lbs...and we find out we have no rope...so Jos and Bev go to Home Depot, and it's closed...and go to a bunch of other places to try and find some...and Ja and Melissa end up finding some across the street. Anyway, so after a lot of work, Averel and I are able to secure the TV, which sits about 50 inches high...to the truck bed, to ensure that it won't fall during the drive to mom and pop's, where it's staying temporarily. We need gas before we head to LA(we're in the valley at this point), so we go to the shell nearby. While we're getting gas, Averel calls me over to his side of the car...the rear passenger tire is flat...not completely, but totally out of air. We inspect it...and find there's a nail in it... W T F. The air station is out of order there, so we have to drive the truck, loaded, to another gas station...the air seemed to be coming out at a very very slow rate, so we risked filling it up and driving it to LA...which worked. We just monitored it the whole time. Now I just gotta find time to see if the tire is patchable or if it needs replacement. Now I know these are all money matters, and I'll be the first to say, hey, money problems? It could be worse...a lot worse. I'm not starving or anything...but, I AM about to move and it's always hard to deal w/ these unexpected expenses. That, coupled with things just going in my mind, at work, and everything else, just makes these little pokes and prods that much more unbearable. At one point in my car today, I had to yell out, "What else you got for me?!?!?!?!? Bring it on!"

I definitely wouldn't compare my struggles to Job's, but still...we are all definitely tested in life...

I am a brief nap before the drive home...

Happy B-day to my crazy cousin Irene! You crack me up manang!

Believe it or not, but she used to take care of Jos and me back in the day...


This is Abigail and Sophia. It was the girls' first birthday this weekend...I got to see Jenny and company at Rainforest Cafe in Downtown Disney. I got there a little late becuase I came from another family function, but I was so glad to see
these little girls. They're so big already.




Here's one of me and Sophia...at least I think it's Sophia..I'm pretty sure it is...he he he. She was playing w/ my sunglasses and trying to smash my nose into my face, and pull my lip...Children, gotta love'em man.

Of wrestling and all things secret
So I was in the car the other day after I went out to lunch w/ a few people who, for the sake of this segment, shall remain nameless. They shall hereto be referred to as A, B and C, though C didn't have many speaking parts. Anyway, they were dropping me back off at work and C was talking about how one of C's coworkers knew Chris Jericho and A started to get quite excited. C proceeds to tell her coworker how A still watches wrestling all the time. So I say,

MeYou STILL watch wrestling?
A (Embarrassed) Ummm...yeah. So? (Long pause)B watches The Hills!!!!
(we all break into roaring laughter)
B I didn't even say anything!!! I was just sitting here, being quiet!!!
A If I'm going down, I'm taking EVERYONE down WITH ME!!!
(more laughter)
Me That's why you never tell ANYONE that you secretly watch shows everyone will make fun of you for!!!
B I thought HE was SLEEPING!!! I didn't know he saw me watching it! Dangit!
(even more laughter)
We were totally dying all the way until they dropped me off at work. It was like that one friends episode when they're all telling each others' secrets. Actually this happened a few times...but the one in particular that comes to mind is the one when they find out that Monica's underwear is on the clothes line outside, that Chandler has 3 nipples, and that Joey was in Porno movie. Frickin hilarious. Sometimes, I think my life is just one super long Friends episode....

I am the day that never was...

I miss a lot of things...
I miss what life was like in Michigan when we lived there
I remember in our neighborhood in Pickwick Circle, my sister and I could just walk out of the house and into our neighbors' houses, where our little kid friends lived, just to say hello. The door would always be open and we could come in and watch cartoons or play games. One winter, all the kids were playing outside in the snow. We were building little hills all over the street and the bigger kids were pouring water over them...I didn't really know why...until the next morning when we saw the line of cars driving out to work, as slow as possible, over each and every hill we had made the day before, which at this point had turned into a hundred little speed bumps. I'm sure we all got more than an earful about that from our parents...

Being a little kid
Elementary school - We'd breakfast at home, and go to school. 15 minutes for recess, where I had my juice and snack, and we'd shoot around on the basketball court; it was too short to play a full game. At lunch, we'd play a full game...sometimes, we'd switch it up; there was dodgeball, prisoner, suicide, butts up, football, etc. I'd wear out my new tennis shoes within 6-7 months every year...the soles were literally melted off and there was no choice but to buy new shoes. After school, we sometimes went home w/ our friends and hung out at their house until mom or pop picked us up. PE was always fun, relay races, other games, just being outdoors playing. Wednesdays, the hot lunch was pizza...i never missed one of those days in 8 years I think, except for when I was sick. Every year, we'd sell World's Finest Chocolate candy bars...and if you sold four boxes, you got to go to disneyland. Out of 8 years in elementary school, I got to go 3 times. The last time I went was when I was in eight grade, and a couple of us got in trouble for stealing stuff from the stores. I never got caught, but one girl in our class did, and she took me down w/ her. I got suspended for 2 weeks...probably the most BORING 2 weeks I have ever had in my life - no tv, no phone, no video games...nothin. And there's not really much to do as a kid when you're at home w/ nothing to do and all your friends are at school. I don't even remember how I could have possibly passed the time away. Not the fondest memory, but it's a memory that stands out from my childhood.

My Legos
Maybe this is how I passed the time while I was serving that suspension. I had an entire city built in the den of our house. People had neighbors, there was a fire station, police station, and a hospital. There was even a carwash, which of course had no water. I remember secretly wishing that they would come alive when no one was watching and just go about their daily lives. I think they enjoyed their city very much.

Sitting up late w/ the roomies
College...it seems like yesterday...yet it's been 11 years since my freshman year. I miss the late nights I spent w/ people, esp the roomies. We played video games, smoked and drank on the patio, made futile attempts to study the night before a midterm, we went to get food - usually at Albertos or maybe Jack in the Crack. We laughed late into the night and were almost always too tired to get up and go to class the next day. We even called a nationall holiday week, and all of the roomies ditched class the whole time. School was stressful, though I didn't really do everything in my power to reduce that stress, but fun nonetheless. I learned a lot about what it was to be a friend, to be open minded, to develop and cultivate relationships. I also learned the hard way...I learned what happens when you don't study, what happens when you're NOT open-minded, and also how to be a better person, because there were times when I was a real jerk. I learned a lot in college...things that have really shaped me into the person I am today. I wouldn't ever trade my college experience for anything in the world.

The LA Marathon
While training for the marathon, I'd do my long distance run on the weekends. I got a lot of thinking done during these runs. I'd spend QT w/ the people I cared about and it was just a really good release. By the end of my training...I was in probably the best shape of my life since I was in high school, and at the end of training, I was ready. The Marathon is probably one of my personal greatest accomplishments and I will never forget that experience.

I miss a lot of things in my life; a lot of things that have come and gone, a lot of things that are no longer, a lot of things that are just memories now, fading away into the sunset. I miss those and so many other things so very much...

It does not do well to dwell on dreams and the past; in doing so, one may just forget to live

I am a spine in an unnatural resting position...

Evelyn Ng - She's pretty cute. But if you see her in other pictures, sometimes she looks kinda weird. I think she has a 5-head. And it's definitely the sunglasses thing on the head...I like that a lot for some reason. Maybe it makes foreheads less prominent? Anyway, I saw her last night at hooters. I woudl've taken a picture w/ her if so many people hadn't been buggin her already, he he he.

If there was anyone in the world I'd be close to hating, it would be customer service reps, specifically from the "NEW AT&T, formerly Cingular" wirless company. I have been going back and forth for the last two months about the problems with my phone. The first time, they did some update thing, the second, they had me take it into a store and get the simcard replaced, and now, I'm trying to get the phone replaced. I know I originally said that I would just buy a new one altogether, but dude, it's like 300-400 bucks for the phone. Plus, I spent like another 30 bucks for the in-car charger...so I'd have to get another one of those for the new phone...unless it's the same brand and I don't know so much about LG anymore. I had lunch w/ Dana the other day and she had issues w/ her phone too and got it replaced and hasn't had any problems since, at least that's what she said. So anyway, I call Cingular, I mean, AT&T and I tell them the whole thing again, and she's trying to find out exactly what's goin on, and I keep telling her the same thing..I know it has to do w/ the hardware and not the coverage or the simcard, I've done both already and I just want the number to warranty. So Shashandra is trying to tell me that she doesn't have records of my dropped calls and asks for a specific date of when I had such problems, and I tell her it's happening EVERY DAY, at least two or three times...EVERY DAY (I repeated EVERY DAY again at the end for added emphasis). So 18 grueling minutes later, she says, she's gonna give me the number to the warranty dept...WTF. That's what I asked for 15 MINUTES AGO! Thanks for wasting my time. I wish I was the type of person that yelled at people sometimes, but then again, I AM at work...but why yell, it doesn't get anywhere...at least I was firm. I spent more time on hold than anything, that was the most annoying part. So I finally get the number and call the warranty dept, after the lady goes through a bunch of checks and balances for physical and water damage, my replacement is on it's way, in 5 business days. I hope this works....it only took 2 phone calls totalling 30 minutes...whew...okay, done venting on that.

Throwback to the late 90's
I hung out w/ my old friends from Loyola last night. The first actual hangout in ELEVEN years. Hard to believe it's been over a decade since we all spent time together. Granted, I've seen Darrel on a few occasions for wedding stuff and he came out to my b-day, but the other guys...we only ran into each other at one of the guys in our class' funeral a few years back. It was really great to just catch up on the past 11 years, we soon came to see that some things don't change. More or less we all look the same, all of us have gained some weight, he he he. But the way we talked, the jokes, the laughter and even the camraderie. It felt like we weren't that far out from high school graduation...we reminisced about how stupid and idiotic we were and just how fun it was to be just that way back in the day. We're gonna try to meet up more often...once a month, or maybe even every other month would be often enough. I wish I took a pic...i need to be more assertive about gettin pics on occasions like that.

So I'm registered for the Nike Run Hit again...and I went running yesterday; before i met up w/ the guys. 2 warm-up laps around the track and then some stretching. I tried to run the whole time, but i just couldn't, I ended up run/walking a mile and then taking a short water break, and then another 1/2 a mile. Damn, I'm in bad shape for this run...5 miler. I need to run more often. Hopefully I can run again on Friday. 2 or 3 times a week coupled w/ basketball oughtta do it..hopefully. And of course this two mile run makes me feel completely out of it today. I was talking to with boss and had no idea what he was saying or even what I was saying for that matter, I was so tired...

It's hump day...and I could sure go for a drink...

I am the wrong day out...

It's almost 3AM and I'm still up...this blows.

Spent some QT w/ the fam this weekend in vegas. It was interesting. I realize how little time I spend with them, esp w/ Auntie Winda visiting from the PI and all. It was fun to have dinner with them; we ate at Trevi @ Cesar's Palace and then gambled afterward. So funny to watch how excited pop gets everytime he wins on the slots, even if it's a little...it brought a smile to my face just to watch them over at the slots while I was losing my money on 3-card poker...that game is so frickin addicting. Mom's funny...from her thinking she won over $1000 on the slots at IP but realizing that she was sitting at a penny machine so her winnings ended up only being $60 bucks to her thinking our tortillas at el pollo loco were "sunflower" tortillas(because she was asking which ones we got and I said there's SOME flower and SOME corn, to her just bing strange and silly, we all had a good share of laughs. Gambing-wise, didn't lose too much this weekend...spent more than i actually lost on gambling. If it wasn't for that stupid 3-card poker stint at the palace, then I would've actually been in the black for a change. So I'm not too disappointed.

Averell told me this story about him being at City Walk today. He was watching Jalen(my godson) playing at the fountains and this old man comes by and gives Averell a look, and then looks at the kid. Averell gives himi a nod and the old man says, "If only we could be kids again." Simply stated, and so true. The care-free life of a two-year-old. No worries, no staying up late because he has too much on his mind, no anxiety...just chillin, so to speak.

Maybe counting sheep will help. I remember once I tried it...and I got to over 200 and didn't even get tired at all. I was imagining how they were jumping the fence, and how they looked after they landed...if after 200 there was just like a huge pile of sheep chillin there, or if they get out of the way for the sheep after...hmmm, maybe the sheep thing won't work afterall..I'll try counting marbles or something....

I am a tire in need of air...

Talk about unproductive - well, as far as work is concerned...i have been just that almost this entire week. Yeah, a few meetings here and there, and i did spend a fair amount of time test driving, but all-in-all, i haven't really done much. There's a lot to do, but I'm just not motivated to do it. I have a ton to prepare for, I'm actually leading 3 projects this fiscal year and I'm not really helping myself by sitting on my bum all day...but hey, I'm just taking advantage of the calm before the storm - or so I say, he he he.

I need a sense of normalcy in my life. Normalcy...is that even a word? Well it is to me now. Things haven't been "normal" for a long time, and I'm in need of something that'll make everything feel normal again. Well, I AM goin to vegas this weekend, maybe that'll be my normalcy since it'll be like my 3rd trip in about 2 months...i should get an apt there.

Ode to vegas...

I am a one-way conversation...

Don't go looking for comfort where you won't find any. Sometimes, people know just what to say..to make you feel better...others, not so much.

I am a day overdue...

So it looks like I get to visit my homeland once again. Not the philippines...Michigan. Not until January, but I have to plan ahead of time because of project schedules and stuff...I think I may stay a couple of days extra out there so I can visit some family, if they'll have me of course. Haven't been to Michigan since '01 and that was just for the senior project, didn't get to do much really, just go out there for the competition, drive by a few places and then head back. Don't really know what exactly there is to see out there...but hopefully I'll find something fun and interesing. Visit my cousin out there, take some pics of our old house or something, play in the snow...somethin.

I don't like the feeling of someone not having faith in you, or believing in you. It's happened to me several times in the past, in various situations, but all times, I feel were completely unwarranted. Regardless of the situation, I think it stinks...and it just brings up "a bad taste in my mouth" every time I think about it.

I am one of life's many echoes...

Hmmm, how short my memory is, I had already blogged about his exact thing before. Check it out...

October 19, 2006

I am a different outcome...

These cotton socks I'm wearing today are really uncomfortable...at least I think it's my socks. It can't be my shoes...cuz I've never felt this uncomfortable...something feels like it was poking really hard at my pinky toes. Then I remembered one of the movies I like very much, "Finding Forrester." So there's a scene in that movie where some guy brings Sean Connery's character groceries and new socks. When he gets the socks, he flips them inside out and another character asks why...and he responds, "Socks are poorly engineered...the seams are on the inside...hurts the toes." So I did that to my socks and it worked! Just with these cotton socks though, cuz the seams are really thick...my other nylon/acrylic socks that i use for running and stuff, they're practically seamless. So awesome...movies can teach you so much.

Lesson of the day
Sometimes things don't happen exactly the way you want them to, but know that there is a master plan...

Well, I'm up...as usual around this time. And I Just finished watching Meet Joe Black. I've seen it before and it really was one of the only things on TV, so I thought I'd finish it. Anyway, so in the story, Death comes in human form(in the form of Brad Pitt) and makes a deal with William Parish(Anthony Hopkins). The deal is that he will delay William's death in exchange for teaching him how to "live." Along the way he falls in love w/ William's daughter(Claire Forlani...hot hot hot), which of course complicates things, but the basic storyline is the knocking of death upon that door. I thought about that...what I would do if death were to come knocking at the door this very night. In years past, I think I would've tried to close the door as fast as I could and take off running, as far away as possible. But now, I wouldn't do that...becuase it's just one of those inevitable things in life...like taxes. And I don't mean to sound all morbid or anything, it's just one of those realizations one comes to in life...the acceptance that life is not in my control, it's in God's...and when it's your time, it's your time. I'm obviously delirious...i have to wake up in about 4 hours and 40 min....time to hit the sack before my ramblings become even more bumbly.

I am the beginning of the flight...

There's a scene in the movie Finding Forrester where William has his groceries and shopping delivered to his home and Jamal is there. He opens a pair of socks and flips them inside out before putting them on. So Jamal asks why he is doing that and WIlliam replies, "Socks are poorly engineered, the seams are built on the inside...hurts the toes." I never really got that feeling from my socks until the last year or so...especially w/ my cotton socks. Most of my athletic socks are the newer type, non-cotton and non-seamed. But my cotton ones, they're still the same. So I put on a pair of tube socks today and realized man, the seams are really big on these...and when I put on my shoes, they were really pushing against the top of my toes, so I had to kinda rearrange it so the seams were under my toes, but it was still a little painful, but more uncomfortable. It felt like there was something in my shoe...well, there WAS, but like something else, like when a rock or something is in there. So I can't wait til this frickin work day is over so I can take these dang shoes and socks off and wear my tsinelas on my way home. And I will for now on be looking for cotton socks or tube socks w/o seams. I just wonder why I haven't felt this uncomfortable before, maybe it's the shoes...nonetheless, I'd like to avoid even the possiblity.

Had coffee w/ Jos last night for the first time ever...just me and her. It was really cool. We usually do our heart-to-hearts either on the phone, or when we're both chillin and have time to kill at the parentals' house, but that doesn't happen too often. I really admire my sister. She irritates the crap out of me sometimes, and she can be a little mean, but she is one of the strongest people I know. I just wish she knew that.

Health factoid for the day
Here’s the lowdown on fats:
Healthier fats - Monounsaturated and polyunsaturated fats. These are found in certain oils (olive, peanut, canola), many nuts, some seeds, and avocados.
Less desirable fats - Saturated fats and trans fats
Saturated fats are found in foods like bacon, butter, full-fat cream cheese, and sour cream. Trans fats are found in many packaged baked goods (cookies, crackers), margarine and shortening.

So watch what you eat!

I am a minor delay...

Happy B-day to my brother Chris! and a Happy belated to my godson Jalen! (it was yesterday). See below for boboy's pic, he he he.


So glad it's friday. I'm tired as hell. I feel like I'm so overwhelmed with things on my mind lately. Planning for pop's party, wedding upon wedding, work and future considerations, etc. I feel like butter spread on too much bread...and of course I don't help my own situation by goin out or having something planned practically every night. I need to chill a bit. Maybe once next month comes around, things will be more relaxed; all the planning(though it's not even that much) will be done, and I will be in a new place and have my own spot to relax...I can't frickin wait. I think it's more of the not having my own place that's gettin to me right now. And I'll still have a roomie, but at least I can go back to not having to worry about so many other people in the house. Tick tock tick tock....anyway, onto brighter things...

This is pretty frickin sweet.

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I love when people can blend old and new and fuse it together almost seamlessly. There was that one superbowl Pepsi commercial, at least I think it was Pepsi...anyway, there's like a Gergorian Chant group over at one church and a band blasting away in another location, and then they all of the sudden play both together and it's totally in sync...frickin awesome. Music is great. Speaking of music. The new Common album is pretty sweet. And I can't wait to hear the new Joss Stone...she's hot.

I really need a new phone...i'm giving up on my LG. It's a piece of crap. It keeps dropping calls, like in the middle of a call, it completely loses signal. And it can't be my carrier, because I've never had these same problems in the same areas over the past what...10 years I've had them? Stupid phone. That's what I get for getting the "free" phone that comes w/ service renewal. Dangit. And it was rated so well too...I did my research and everything. I'd turn it back in and go for the manufacturer's warranty, but if they notice the tiny scratches on the display, then I'll have to pay full price, and eff that...if I'm gonna drop some cash on another phone, it should be much better than this junk. And to think these past two vegas trips...I spent enough $$$ to frickin buy two iphones. I hate vegas, ha ha ha.

Like I said, 'been another hectic week. I haven't even had the chance to talk about boboy's bachelor partay! But I will now... As always, it was a good good trip. Didn't lose as much as the last trip, but let's just say, if I add up the money spent on the last couple trips, I could have TWO iphones...dangit. But hey, it was totally worth it for me though, so it don't matter! Anyway, not much to say but fun times, and after much filtering, here are the pics ok for posting, ha ha ha.

Once I flew to vegas, I hate driving, but when it's with your boys, it's never all that bad. Except when...

Slept practically the WHOLE way through. THank goodness the other two boys were up and catching up all night w/ me. Kept me awake the entire time.


First night we crashed at Mina and Danny's place, to save a little green. Thanks Mr and Mrs Calmelat, you guys are BOTH my friends(he he he).

First night actually in Vegas, we did something I haven't done in a long long while; roam the strip. We walked here and there, stopping at every bar and either taking a shot or getting a drink. We were good and toasty soon after that...

Those yards have a lot lot lot of alcohol. Looks can be deceiving.

Party time! The actual "Bachelor Party" festivities didn't take place until Saturday, where we had a nice quiet dinner and then went to sleep after a long conversation w/ all the boys 0 => (that's my face w/ a halo on it).

This is us gettin ready - apparently I look like Cisco(sp?)


Here's all the groomsmen...right after dinner before we all went to sleep. All in all, it was a lot of fun! Good times!


Need I say more? Hope you had fun boboy!!! Happy b-day again buddy!

And lastly, FOOTBALL SEASON is upon us...which means so is FANTASY FOOTBALL. And in the words of Iya's dear brother...
"Fantasy Football season is upon us, may our families understand... and may our co-workers never find out."
Though I actually DO fantasy football w/ my coworkers, so it doesn't really apply to me...

Happy Trails!

I am a little prayer...

As cliche as it might sound...

"How beautiful a day can be when friendship touches it."

I am 16 ounces of sympathy....

Pain is an incredibly strange thing. We all have various levels of thresholds of it; be it physical or emotional. For example, I cannot eat anything too hot, temperature-wise, that is. Like rice, or coffee...or soup even, I have to wait until it's cooled down a little before I can eat it. All the while, my friends are already digging in. It's strange...because the temperature is the same, yet for me, it seems hotter. But on the other hand, I can eat stuff that's pretty spicy, while others can not. But what's phenomenal to me is pain by association; also known as sympathy pain. How one person can be in so much pain and how another person can literally feel that pain. To me; that's love, it really is. It defines some sort of connection in whatever relationship. Parents for children, vice versa, friends, lovers, etc. Sometimes it sucks, because you may not want to feel that pain, but lookin at the bigger picture, it's quite amazing and something truly beautiful. To experience life together like that. God really did mean for us to experience life with other people.

Work hasn't been so bad lately...though, in a weird way, I kinda wish it was busier. A few months ago I was so busy the day would literally whiz by, along w/ the week. Friday would be here before I knew it. And I was totally distracted, not really thinking about anything else except for work. It was nice. But then again, I also stayed pretty late like every night. And i was little stressed out because of the pressure. Hmmm, I should be careful what I ask for.

I need to work out...really I do.

"Your pain is my pain, your tears are mine."

I am a bowl of noodles...

I love noodles. I really do. Had ramen this morning and had pho for lunch...mmmmmmmm noodles. Pasta for dinner perhaps? I hope my poop isn't one big noodle...

I was chattin w/ a friend yesterday...
chat buddy (11:34:19 AM): guess what this girl said to me today
chat buddy (11:34:41 AM): "Hey chat buddy, I love your top. Where did you get it? Target?"
chat buddy (11:34:58 AM): And I reply, "Um... thanks. Banana Republic"
chat buddy (11:36:38 AM): and she says, "oh well they were selling the cheaper versions at Target"
liljayster78 (11:37:01 AM): ha ha ha
liljayster78 (11:37:06 AM): how did you take that?
chat buddy (11:37:03 AM): I didnt know how to take it
chat buddy (11:37:07 AM): I just sat there
chat buddy (11:37:09 AM): and smiled
liljayster78 (11:37:41 AM): ha ha ha, maybe she's just trying to save you money?
chat buddy (11:37:34 AM): sure
chat buddy (11:37:48 AM): or maybe she figures target bc I work for a church?
liljayster78 (11:42:42 AM): well, what's her usual demeanor?
liljayster78 (11:42:49 AM): should always look for the positive first
chat buddy (11:42:40 AM): I know, I know
chat buddy (11:42:44 AM): but still!
liljayster78 (11:43:07 AM): do you mind if i post this conversation on my blog?
liljayster78 (11:43:12 AM): but I'll replace your name w/ somethin else
chat buddy (11:44:15 AM): ha ha ha
chat buddy (11:44:31 AM): Um, sure, but you have to send me the address after
liljayster78 (11:44:52 AM): nothing specific I want to point out about you
chat buddy (11:44:40 AM): curious about what you are going to say
liljayster78 (11:44:59 AM): but just something in general I was thinking about
liljayster78 (11:45:05 AM): how we perceive comments right off the bat
chat buddy (11:44:49 AM): that I see the bad first?
liljayster78 (11:45:12 AM): not you
liljayster78 (11:45:13 AM): only
liljayster78 (11:45:14 AM): everyone
liljayster78 (11:45:22 AM): cuz even I thought it at first
chat buddy (11:45:09 AM): ha ha ha....I actually didn't think she was trying to be mean, honestly
liljayster78 (11:45:29 AM): but I had to stop myself and look at the other side
chat buddy (11:45:20 AM): it's more, I don't think people know how offensive they can be
liljayster78 (11:45:40 AM): or just that we don't know how to take it at all
liljayster78 (11:45:48 AM): yeah, that's the other thing
chat buddy (11:45:45 AM): like of all the ways to get out of it?
chat buddy (11:45:52 AM): that's the best she could do?
liljayster78 (11:46:12 AM): like the nuances of communication
chat buddy (11:46:02 AM): Why not just stop at, hey I like your top
liljayster78 (11:46:24 AM): just the many many ways it can be taken
chat buddy (11:46:07 AM): where did you get it?
liljayster78 (11:46:36 AM): right, so either she was trying to save you money and didn't approach it the right way, or she was being a bitch and trying to insult you. It's either one or the other really...funny how the approach can muddle it all up.

I generally perceive myself as a positive person. But even I would've been taken back initially by that comment. Communication is so complex sometimes....even in simple statements, there's a lot to read between the lines. It's like playing a real live game of poker, w/o the cards...is this person bluffing? I wish we were more trusting as a whole.... And it's all about what you say and how you say it...sheesh.

IS THERE ANYTHING MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN A BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL FLAMINGO, FLYING ACCROSS A BEAUTIFUL SUNSET? AND HE'S CARRYING A BEAUTIFUL ROSE IN HIS BEAK, AND HE'S ALSO CARRYING A BEAUTIFUL PAINTING WITH HIS FEET? AND ALSO, YOU'RE DRUNK
-Jack Handy

I am a short PSA....

There are two chris' commenting on my site...one is my friend Christine, and the other is my boy, boboy. So if anyone thought that boboy was gay because of a comment he made, it probably wasn't him. You guys are gonna have to figure somethin out...maybe christine can be christine, he he he.

I am one of life's conversations....

Finally out of July and into August, which seems like another whirlwind of a month straight into September. My oh my, where does the time go?

blech! Nasty! A freakin FLY just tried to fly into my ear right now. Such an eerie thing too, cuz you can hear the buzzing getting louder and LOUDER cuz it's practically IN your ear. BLECH! My reaction to it just made me look like an insane dude...kinda reminds me about that one scene where Rachel asks Ross to get the pie out of the man's hood and he gets it and then proceeds to tell the guy, "Now I just have to get my coffee out of that man's pants..." and swats an invisible fly around his ear, ha ha ha. Anyway, i'm all grossed out, ha ha ha. I don't understand what drives insects to fly into the ear...never the nose or the mouth, the ear...where the wax resides and usually kills them. Maybe they're not happy flies...

Dude, this is FRICKIN sweet!!!!


And WHO wouldn't want a pair of THESE DOPE ARSE KICKS?

And lastly, am I the only person who finds it rather difficult, let alone tedious to floss every day? Does everyone floss every day? I sure don't, and yes, I get in trouble with my dentist all the time for it. Maybe I'm not doin it right, or maybe I'm just too frickin lazy...but mleh on flossin...teeth that is.

"In this world truth can wait; she is used to it."
-Douglas William Jerrold